infection at its worst

To me, the most unattractive quality in a person is negativity. That is one thing I truly hate with a passion. I hate that awful, destructive power, how it's so strong and so incredibly contagious. More than any other emotion or state of mind (however you want to classify it) it's just... disgusting. It's suffocating and it warps your thoughts and reactions.

One little spark of negativity sets into motion this immediate chain of events leading, before you even realise it's happening, to this unstoppable Californian forest-fire of anger and gut-wrenching hatred for anyone and anything in your eye line.

I have grown up with a negative person. And for so many years I had little strength to stand against it, allowing myself to be so quickly and fully affected by it, so much so that when faced with said negativity it seeped through all that I was and I too became its conduit. And I hated myself for it, and what's worse, I hated that person for starting it. But a few years ago I actively decided to try to break its hold over me -- to now allow it to have such power over me. When faced with that spark of negativity I try oh-so damn hard to let it roll off my shoulders and to not get sucked into its most disgusting, hateful, destructive path.

I don't want to be part of keeping that fire ablaze... blaming it on someone else isn't good enough.

Negativity is one infection you can actively stop yourself from contracting and therefore spreading -- it's contagious only if you allow it to be.

And I'm trying very hard right now... *sigh*...