how utterly and perfectly awesome...

You know what? God is AWESOME.

That's it. It's as simple as that.

It seems I always have periods of my life where I push Him away, for whatever reason, and turn to the world and to myself. And I know the person I become when this happens: this selfish, negative, and angry person, even, I have a hard time admitting, hateful at times. Maybe not out rightly, just with this black and hardened heart.

But every time I come back to Him. Not because I'm good, or strong, or wise enough to do so, but because God draws me back to Him. By the indescribable and absolute perfect Grace freely given us through his son Jesus Christ, He brings me back to Him. So often using the words and actions of my brothers and sisters in Christ -- He nudges me back to Him. Every. Single. Time.

"Anna, that's enough. Come back now. That's enough."

WoW. It's happened so many times I've lost count, but it never ceases to amaze me. And every time I say, okay, I'll try harder next time... but then I fail. Again.

How great it is to be humbled once again and reminded that we live each day by His Grace and His Grace alone.

"Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place." Revelations 2: 4,5


I remember. I remember... I remember that evening on the Boston harbour at the concert, standing next to the guy who was perfect on paper; the guy of my dreams. I remember, Lord, looking amazedly at the setting sun, the perfect blue sky and thinking, Lord, You've romanced me. There is none like You. All I am is Yours forever... I remember.

How awesome is our God. How awesome is our Saviour, Lord Jesus Christ. How utterly and perfectly awesome.