perfect faithfulness

Though my senioritis is, for the most part, behind me now, I've found myself in what feels like yet another 'study rut,' mainly because of anatomy. It's never been my strong-point, but what's worse, it just doesn't fit with the way I study. To cut a long story short, all I seem to be doing with my time as of late is attempting to study anatomy and failing to do so... hence the procrastination. I could, theoretically, go and study another area (which would be all hunky dory), but it's not like I can brush off this ever-increasing amount of anatomy study forever... sadly enough.

Other than that, I've actually started to go to a new church the past few weeks with my dad (and mum, when she chooses to tag along) and it's been really great. Actually, more than just 'really great' but fantastic, surprisingly enough. I guess even though I had been attending my previous church for about three years now, I've never really felt completely a part of it. That's probably why I never became an official member, unlike my sister who is so into it! But this new place is pretty incredible. Tiny, I grant you -- smaller than my old church, if that's even possible -- but everything they do just... fits. And it's been really challenging too, which I love. It's starting to make me thirst for God, the Spirit and His word again, in a way I haven't been for a long time.

You know what's incredible? That God uses everyone - sometimes the most unlikely person or people - to show his perfect faithfulness. There had been several quasi-'big' issues that have been on my mind these past couple weeks, and they had been starting to weigh me down quite a lot, each in their own way. Things I had to do, things occupying and dominating most of my thoughts - in a not so great way. And so I'd been praying about them a lot, but seemingly to no avail. Then on Friday, ALL OF IT just resolved -- all those issues sorted themselves out... somehow. And all that was required of me was to sit back and passively watch it all unfold, all the while just praising God for how awesome he truly is. And what I find really amazing is that these people and situations and events -- which to anyone else might seem like it has nothing to do with God -- was really God's incredibly clear voice reminding me that he's got everything under control.

I think one of the big steps I've taken in my Christian growth this year -- another chip God's made in my life-long Christ-like transformation -- is really understanding God's perfect faithfulness and learning to have confidence in that. God can only show his faithfulness if you let him - you have to give him the opportunity. You have to trust him with something first, before he can come through for you. It's common sense really. And all these tiny steps I've taken this year, putting things before Him, asking him to just be control, has allowed me to really experience his awesome faithfulness in a way I haven't experienced before. How great is our God!